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traveled 23 light-years
still keep going
24.10.26
> i cant be active here alot but I WANT TO.
> i found another internship and gave my reports to the uni. i still dont know what to do with everything and feel like im driven away in life but life goes on!
> i also diagnosed for adhd and depression. it was something i always had my suspicions about and now here it is. i have some concerns about the adhd medication but i really hate the way i literally cant function normally(?) antidepressants on the other hand helps a bit with neutralizing myself(?)
> the thing is, if anybody has their concerns about getting help for what they are going through, its okay to be scared or have concerns. uncertanity IS scary but its us who label things as good or bad. and its us who decide to take a step forward. it took years for me to do this and look, i still have my concerns about so many things lol its not something thats gonna heal suddenly but if i am gonna live i dont wanna live miserably or with no control over my actions. we deserve a good life, you deserve a good life so go make that appointment. also my mailbox is open so feel free to write me, its important to have support even for the first step, i probably would have waited a couple more years if it weren't for my friend's encouragement.
17.09.26
> this thing become monthly somehow.
> my summer was STUFFED. not complaining tho. finished one internship, visited relatives, went to my friends summer house, watched so many movies, started watching american horror story, read all for the game
> also now the resident evil and spiderman movies are here im so excited
28.07.26
> what ever happens, study and work hard and earn your own money. cuz at the end its only you who cares about you the most. not your friends. not even your own family.
19.07.20
> went to picnic to the beach yesterday and great news: weather is SO NICE. i wasnt aware of it since i was so into my problems and graduation to enjoy anything this month. so it was a nice change of peace. go out and touch some grass everyone its worth it
> also i talked to a friend who diognosed adhd recently to learn the procedure and everything.. its just hard to convince myself. but i guess the time is coming cuz keeping up like this as an adult is hard
> internship tomorrow and i feel like i know nothing. i studied this for 5 years whats going on
> please check your mails everyday. nobody turning to my mails (ik its weekend ik and idc! i check my mails everyday, i think its important to at least let them know that you checked it and will work on it when the time comes)
11.07.26
> im gonna make a tiny reminder app with my current hyperfixation clive
<-- this dude. i was thinking about it for a while now but never had the chance to start
> lets hope i pass the exam so i can focus on that fully
> i started watching spider noir!! its quite different but a nice experience. watching it full black and white as it should be:D and i was thinking, since that universe doesnt have colors at all, do they have a gray color system? so conversations are like "ohoho anchor jacket i see. you are fancy today!" or "you changed your hair from iron to dove? looks good!" ??? it would be funny to see some dialogues like that
07.07.26
> started leaarning spanish. and memes help me more than actual learning sites lol
> should i start watching dora the explorer? would it help????
> yo como limones porque manzanas are not sour enough
04.07.26
> fuuuuuuuuuu
> deadline tomorrow
> i shouldnt sleep. does eating instant coffee after drinking cola give you a heartattack?
> i realized being on a group call really helps for not sleeping. i stayed up till 6 a.m even tho i woke up at 7 a.m the other day (so 23h awake) and i HAD to sleep in the end cuz i started daydreaming lol but it still helped me to finish my two projects. now there is only reports i gotta fill. I GOT THIS
03.07.26
> i guess stress fixed horrible sleep schedule.. i woke up so early too many times because of nightmares, so now i cant stay up late even when i want to
> i relate to this rat so much, eating my tuna and corn sandwich
28.06.26
> can someone just throw me to 2 weeks later please?
> some says time travel is impossible but i think its not. you just gotta bend the space a little bit, yknow?
> also I just finished twd season 6. i hate the last episode. i will always hate it
14.06.26
> i feel like everything is going down these days. and universe is against me. i am against me. but i always remind myself things will be fine. as long as i don't give up till the last minute. bad feelings are not permanent. they comes and goes. that doesn't mean that i am sure there will be better days. but i am sure i will feel better. thats how it works.
08.06.26
> finished good omens final season. It was a nice ending for them
> i am so excited for spidernoir but im gonna wait for all the eps to release
06.06.2026
> thats too much 6 there..
> i decided adding a to do list here to not forget the ideas i like and want to add to my page
> to do list:
- art page
- a room with interacive objects
- interactive constellation with star info pages
- visual novel
- vn reviews page
02.06.26
> i went to see Backrooms movie. it gave me goosebumps while watching so i can say it was a good one. gave it 4.5/5. i read the reviews afterwards tho.. why no one likes it?? I mean yes the first half was slow and kinda boring but visuals, sounds and storytelling was nice
> and I bought the game "backrooms together". so excited to play w my friends
20.05.26
> everytime i decide to fix my sleep schedule it becomes worse and worse
> i am trying to go out more these days before summer arrives and heat fully takes over. but it leaves a guilty taste in my mouth... can't describe it, sorry. how can going out be someones guilty pleasure?
> as a summer hater, can i say summer heat getting worse every year D:
13.05.26
> im in my twd era again (i never left) this man killing me
> fun fact! Clive inspired by Daryl Dixon<3
> i am watching it like someone chasing me. i finished 3 seasons in 3 days
> my friends cat jumped out of the balcony and broke her spine. she will have surgery tomorrow, it will be tough.
> i suck at relaxing others i dont know what to do other than hugging her
> i love " artemis moon ". i know its not colorful like it seems but its still beautiful
> in this image moon appears colorful unlike the other gray moon photos because its a high saturated photo to highlight mineral variations on its surface. we can say that moon has colors but our vision is not good enough to see them
