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traveled 23 light-years
still keep going
28.07.26
> what ever happens, study and work hard and earn your own money. cuz at the end its only you who cares about you the most. not your friends. not even your own family.
19.07.20
> went to picnic to the beach yesterday and great news: weather is SO NICE. i wasnt aware of it since i was so into my problems and graduation to enjoy anything this month. so it was a nice change of peace. go out and touch some grass everyone its worth it
> also i talked to a friend who diognosed adhd recently to learn the procedure and everything.. its just hard to convince myself. but i guess the time is coming cuz keeping up like this as an adult is hard
> internship tomorrow and i feel like i know nothing. i studied this for 5 years whats going on
> please check your mails everyday. nobody turning to my mails (ik its weekend ik and idc! i check my mails everyday, i think its important to at least let them know that you checked it and will work on it when the time comes)
11.07.26
> im gonna make a tiny reminder app with my current hyperfixation clive
<-- this dude. i was thinking about it for a while now but never had the chance to start
> lets hope i pass the exam so i can focus on that fully
> i started watching spider noir!! its quite different but a nice experience. watching it full black and white as it should be:D and i was thinking, since that universe doesnt have colors at all, do they have a gray color system? so conversations are like "ohoho anchor jacket i see. you are fancy today!" or "you changed your hair from iron to dove? looks good!" ??? it would be funny to see some dialogues like that
07.07.26
> started leaarning spanish. and memes help me more than actual learning sites lol
> should i start watching dora the explorer? would it help????
> yo como limones porque manzanas are not sour enough
04.07.26
> fuuuuuuuuuu
> deadline tomorrow
> i shouldnt sleep. does eating instant coffee after drinking cola give you a heartattack?
> i realized being on a group call really helps for not sleeping. i stayed up till 6 a.m even tho i woke up at 7 a.m the other day (so 23h awake) and i HAD to sleep in the end cuz i started daydreaming lol but it still helped me to finish my two projects. now there is only reports i gotta fill. I GOT THIS
03.07.26
> i guess stress fixed horrible sleep schedule.. i woke up so early too many times because of nightmares, so now i cant stay up late even when i want to
> i relate to this rat so much, eating my tuna and corn sandwich
28.06.26
> can someone just throw me to 2 weeks later please?
> some says time travel is impossible but i think its not. you just gotta bend the space a little bit, yknow?
> also I just finished twd season 6. i hate the last episode. i will always hate it
27.06.26
> i did something. might be the stupidest thing i did but im doing a lot of stupid things so im not sure.....
> btw the bank send my money back. good for them
> and i finished the other project i was doing. i just need to fill the reports and send it on time
> and i have a retake exam in 2 days. thats a whole another problem. i hate the professors on my department really. maybe i can forgive them(internally) after i graduate but right now, i wish the worst for them
21.06.26
> i am in a love hate relationship with my optimism. i like it because thats one of the reasons im still alive. and i hate it because it doesnt go well with my procrastinating ass. i feel like "oh i can finish this 40% done project with 0% done reports.."
> there is 6 hours left dude you are not finishing shit
> but i feel like i will so here we go
> i watched 2 really bad movies in a row while working on my project and they were too bad i got distracted...every character on both films gave me a headache. did someone actually put budget on these???
> and yes ofc i couldnt finish the project on time but yayy im still working on it i really dont know what i am doing i feel like im doing a cpr to someone already gone
20.06.26
> things are a little wonkyy. still busy with my projects. one deadline tomorrow im kinda
> also an atm ate my money today akksdjfnaksdjf let me live plz. i already hate banks and they are just adding fuel to the fire
> watching twd season 6. i miss the good old first seasons
14.06.26
> i feel like everything is going down these days. and universe is against me. i am against me. but i always remind myself things will be fine. as long as i don't give up till the last minute. bad feelings are not permanent. they comes and goes. that doesn't mean that i am sure there will be better days. but i am sure i will feel better. thats how it works.
08.06.26
> finished good omens final season. It was a nice ending for them
> i am so excited for spidernoir but im gonna wait for all the eps to release
06.06.2026
> thats too much 6 there..
> i decided adding a to do list here to not forget the ideas i like and want to add to my page
> to do list:
- art page
- a room with interacive objects
- interactive constellation with star info pages
- visual novel
- vn reviews page
05.06.26
> started studying. distractions makes the progress slower, i don't think i can complete everything on time but still better than never ig
02.06.26
> i went to see Backrooms movie. it gave me goosebumps while watching so i can say it was a good one. gave it 4.5/5. i read the reviews afterwards tho.. why no one likes it?? I mean yes the first half was slow and kinda boring but visuals, sounds and storytelling was nice
> and I bought the game "backrooms together". so excited to play w my friends
28.05.26
> 2 project deadlines in one month i am so . i dont know how to stop procrastinating but its eating my life alive im so tired of it
> no mans sky is just 2$ on xbox and 10$ on steam. 2$ is nothing for a game like that but i want it on my steam TT but im gonna feel like a stupid ass if i give it 10$ instead 2
> im so sick of my overthinking sometimes
> when i first listen to sleep tokens recent album "even in arcadia" i didnt like "caramel" at all. it felt so different from their vibe, it was like a summer pop song. its even their most popular song in spotify like i never get the hype around it - BUT as time passed, i accidentaly listen to it a couple of times and it grown on me.. now i cant stop listening it. this whole week ive been playing it repeatedly. it really stick to me like a caramel
> lmao im sorryTT
21.05.26
> i was thinking about learning an esoteric language, brainfuck was cool but then i found piet and its so fricking fun
14.05.26
> the cat lives!!!
> learned there is another pragmata ending. if its sad too im burning all the cargo ships so no one gets left behind this time
20.05.26
> everytime i decide to fix my sleep schedule it becomes worse and worse
> i am trying to go out more these days before summer arrives and heat fully takes over. but it leaves a guilty taste in my mouth... can't describe it, sorry. how can going out be someones guilty pleasure?
> as a summer hater, can i say summer heat getting worse every year D:
13.05.26
> im in my twd era again (i never left) this man killing me
> fun fact! Clive inspired by Daryl Dixon<3
> i am watching it like someone chasing me. i finished 3 seasons in 3 days
> my friends cat jumped out of the balcony and broke her spine. she will have surgery tomorrow, it will be tough.
> i suck at relaxing others i dont know what to do other than hugging her
> i love " artemis moon ". i know its not colorful like it seems but its still beautiful
> in this image moon appears colorful unlike the other gray moon photos because its a high saturated photo to highlight mineral variations on its surface. we can say that moon has colors but our vision is not good enough to see them
> i finished watching pragmata, my friend streamed it to me
> found family drama is my cage